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alrighty then. im ready now
Towards the end of July, my cat of 15 years, passed.
Between managing my two parents, their new families, and new households, then losing him... I had left my social medias at a standby.
Late August I started college, and I can believe the opportunity to escape, it has already given me. I am grateful.
Fall comes as a change in seasons and I have shifted along with it. I have always known running away from my struggles would only save my heart for so long and I sit here now knowing I have to take it on, and everything else life is throw at me. I must embrace the uphill battle, if not for the hope held by my future, then for the strength it will grant me.
So yes, I am back. I will begin to market myself once again, then be moving to a professional account soon. Those who are interested, I will keep informed.
Thank you for the support you have all given me in various times, it keeps me moving.
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I'd like to share the story of my dear cat's life.
His name was Sully, in recognition of the Monster's Inc. character "Sully" whom Boo calls kitty. At the age of 3, it was my most favourite movie and the only rightful name for the white and grey kitten. He was only 2 months old.
God I could share so many stories about the liveliness of this cat, he was such a character in his own. At one point, he was the fattest, happiest cat I've ever had the pleasure of knowing. I taught him how to push a basketball around, and dance. His favourite activity was to sit at the window chirping at birds.
Mid-late July, I had found he had lost the majority of his weight and became bony. I brought him up to spend 24 hours with me, in an attempt to heal my kitty again. He would eat and drink but never very much, the whole time he was so loving. After 3 days, he gave up eating completely and at the end of day 4, I knew his time with me was coming to an end. Sully followed me everywhere those few days, room to room, and after a day of sitting with him I found he no longer could move when I started moving to go to bed. He didn't lift his head, and no longer purred.
So I laid there crying my thanks to him. I got back up after 30min or so again and walked to the other side of the house, exhausted in everyway possible and knowing that an hour of sleep would do everyone better than nothing, I had stopped functioning. I turned to see Sully having gathered what strength he had left, to come with me one last time. I held him in my arms for a long time before returning him to his favourite spot he'd come from.
It was 8 hours later he passed quietly in his home, surrounded by love.
I have purposefully left details out, but I can guarantee my family and I did everything we could for him.
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what's up guys ! its ya boi frightened-freak on the discord
I've come here to ask for everyone's help in my desperate search for a dino jbd.
now I'm ngl there is totally a few bean designs that I'm already into so in regards to that, I'm looking for people to help me see who has beans that they aren't super into anymore / been thinking about gifting/selling/whatever
"But you can just look through the resell/gift/readopt group ?? What is this even about?"
listen
I struggle keeping up with everyone and I'm bad at interacting, in fact I often blow my opportunities as soon as they arise ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
so if you guys can help communicate it would be a dream
I feel like my best bet from my knowledge, is waiting for one of the artists to design a dino bean and then fighting to the death head to head against others for rights.
so I'm planning to flesh out the character concept in the case its free
odds are it'll be a flatsale/auction design, let's be real everyone loves dinosaurs so why would it not be, I'd totally capitalize on it XD
I am struggling to get a job and also put aside money for tuition, blah blah blah, so I'll be opening commissions soon ;o
I would appreciate if someone could keep an eye out though, I need sleep, so if I can make an arrangement where I have a grabber of speed for me that would be amazing like you don't understand
I know this sounds really bad like I'm trying to work you but I promise that's not my intention at all ah
I'd really love your guys' support though - you have all been great already in chat I love you all <3
(disclaimer : this is not me dropping out of any contests I've entered or will be entering in I'm just seeing if I can not suck with others being cool and supporting me)
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becoming a shitty instagram 'life hack'
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like one of those 5 minute long videos about a super pointless, why would anyone do this, this is literally just a waste of time, "life hack" instagram post
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I am going to be on and off for quite some time and though I've never been on dA 24hr (at least since like 2012 but let's not talk about that) I'm gonna be super "flighty" for a bit
if you care or anything feel free to read on but if not,, bye ??
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I'm trying to get to college and I had been planning to stay in my family's home to spend two years studying at a community college getting an Associates degree, then transferring to another college far away - just cause it's the cheapest and easiest option for me ?? but this past week my parents broke up and are getting a divorce so I don't know what I'm going to do now.
I'm literally so scared.
I have no money, the colleges that offer on-campus housing or housing options have already closed their admission submissions and even then I'm not sure how I would get the money extra to pay for that bc (a lot of) scholarships don't apply to housing.
so basically if you have any ideas hmu I'm gonna meme
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so valentine's day will be fun huh
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wow wow wow
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so you know those fluffy things i post all the time bc im trash
they're great
its a species called jellybean dragons and they're basically better than living
go check them out while i #sellout
they're great
its a species called jellybean dragons and they're basically better than living
go check them out while i #sellout
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Sex, Drugs, and Rock 'n Roll
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so i became legal this Oct 23rd ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
wooah
and then my minecraft boyfriend got kicked out of his house and had to move back to utah, you know just a few days after i was legally able to get a license, drive myself, and fuck but i mean.. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
and then my minecraft boyfriend got kicked out of his house and had to move back to utah, you know just a few days after i was legally able to get a license, drive myself, and fuck but i mean.. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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also,, really need money ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ trying to go to college near home to save money but even that is expensive af - so im selling a whole bunch of characters and doing a bunch of commissions
please hmu if interested,, characters here, ill be adding more as time goes on
please hmu if interested,, characters here, ill be adding more as time goes on
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im also building a portfolio for school so i was going to make a new dA account to better represent my work so
www.strawpoll.me/14240798
go go go
im also building a portfolio for school so i was going to make a new dA account to better represent my work so
www.strawpoll.me/14240798
go go go
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